your so much more than i remember*

I LOVE HOMEE :]

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 20:54:36 GMT

last week was thanksgiving and it was wonderfully spent with lovely friends in a great townn!! i never want to leave jtowwn i love this place. and i love all of my friends so so muchh!! im starting to hate school. alot. im really thinking about transfering or just being a commuter student and live in my nice home with good food and clean bathrooms. i only have one friend at school besides my roomates and all i do is go to class, do my homework, and go to sleep. NOT FUN! but anyway christmas is soon which is something to be happy about. and then i get to be home for a wholeee month! yay.

heres some pics of my friendsssss!!!

these are from the tennis parrtty!

and these are from katiess

ahh being home is so wonderful.

its been yearssss..

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 16:27:06 GMT

hii i know i havent written in a whileee. i do have a lot to write but i dont feel like writing i just wannted to update cuz im cool. i will tell you a few things thoughhhh..i have been thinking a lot lately about somethinggg and i feel good about it so yea. and also im really glad that midterms are almost over- even though im the study queen now and i rock at it!! um. im missing homecoming to hang out with my fam. it will be ok and my friends will have a lot of fun for me. i havent been drinking that much lately ive been kinda a layed back little girl about all that ishhh lately. im kinda tan from that weak ass tanning bed at planet beach. its finally working now that my month is over. umm school is still fun, for me at least i really like it here its just perfect for me. i dunno what else to say. oh i dyed my hair but that was a while ago i will give u some pics to look at.

westsiderrrsss!!

this is what we had to do so we didnt get soakkedd going to eatt!!

monmouth rowan loveee <3

me and leilaniii :)

real world is my life

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 14:58:23 GMT

hiiii im at college and I LOVE ITTT!!! are rooms way hott and beautiful and yesterday we did a lot of fun things. we first sawwww BRAD and LEAH from the real worrrrlld! we got to ask them questions and i asked onee it was real cute lol. then we watched this hypnotist astonishing neil.. who was obviously not to astonishinggg cuz me and jen couldnt get hyptnotized, but it was real funny watching everyone else. after that we went to the cafeteria real early to get in line to meet brad and leah and there they were sittin chillin eating there food. so we got to chill with brad for a little while lol we got pics and autographs and oh it was just lovelyyy!!! hes a babe!!

then our j-town friends all came... allllll of them lol!! we went to a little frat party which was a good time minus all the smoke and all the sweatiness.. but soon got kicked out cuz the police cammmeee. some of the j-towners stayed over and that was fun. i love themmmm!!

but yes college is a good time so far and i know you all want to see these pics so i wont make u wait any longerr byee biotchesss!!

p.s. i miss my fam, but their coming back today!!

oh yea.. lagunaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa toniiiighhhtt!!

little roomies :)

bradtime!!

Leahtimeeeeeeeeeee

partytimeeeeee!!

just one of us was never enough*

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 00:39:51 GMT

hiiii im just sitting borred. im too tired to do anything and my leg hurts. i want to eat ice creamm i just dont feel like getting up. i have some pics to put up while i sit here. college in 2 dayyys im real excited but scared. i miss all my girlss. i want them to visit me. i need to pack but i keep doing a little then stopping. well anywayss yea i guess i dont really have anything to sayy so byee!!

me and best friend at the stone ponyy : )

jenny playing the viola with nick lol

rowan funn

my girrl i miss alot!!

close your eyes just settle settle

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 02:11:51 GMT

hii im kinda sad right now. i just wanna get away from j-towwn. this town has no use anymore except for my family and the friends i actually like. i want to meet a nice boy at school and i want him to make me the happiest girl ever.

i just saw a really cute jeep commercial, it makes jeeps look tough. which they are!! fall out boy won at the vmas, go them!

im sitting home once again. i had a bunch of crazy ideas but i just dont feel up to anything right now.

life goes onnn*

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 21:19:41 GMT

i haven't updated in yearrrss! i dont really have much to say..ive been a sad girl! all my friends are leaving. its are last night with the boys and then it will be me and my little roomies and ashleyy : ) ..i have some goodbye pics they are quite sad except brielle is not a sad girl in hers because she lovs school. im glad for her. i cant wait to go to school and have as much fun as her. dans sad he doesnt like school and i feel bad for him because i love him. tomorrow ed is leaving but its ok i will be visiting him very soon. i helped anthony pack last night it was cute. he has a lot of clothes more then a girl does. ang's goodbye was the saddest ever. shes one of my fav. girls : ( i miss her but she is gonna kiss a boy and party a lot for me!!

summers as good as gone i have no desire to go to the beach anymore its just gotten old. dont get me wrong i love it but i have been busy with other things. i hope i find a nice boy at school. im looking foward to domino sleeping in my little because he said he will if i get homesick. oh dear i almost forgot katie kell n cars goodbye. i missss them to death. they are the funniest happiest lovliest girls i know. i hope their having a lot of funn!! and bennys goodbye was a cute one..hibatchi with my favs. i hope little reg and benny dont break up cuz their the cutest ever!!

i dont know what else to say about anything else. things are all a blur in the b-o-y category. its ok im ok with that. im just doing things on my own. im kinda happy about that situation right now. anyway countdown till school = a weeeeeeeeeek!! oh and today i dropped my phone in the dogs water bowl idiottt!! i put my purse down on the counter and it tipped so i quickly picked it up before it fell and i knocked my cell phone into the water but i got it out real quick before it turned off or anything and i blow dryed it so it works just fine. i must be going now i have to say goodbye to more of my friendsss. bye byee!!

im really gonna miss this boyy..

car car girrrl!!

kellll and kate

brielles goodbye faceee..not sad at all

me and briellee

ang's goodbye facce : (

my girrl i love herrr!!

all the girllls on our lastt night with anggiee : ( ..

hold tight heavy heart*

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 07:38:03 GMT

tonight was a sad night, we said bye to dan. i will probably not see him for a long time and im really upset. i cried to him, and i didnt know what to say i just kinda hugged him over and over again. me and dan have been friends since as long as i can remember. i love him with all of my heart and i will miss him so very much. im not ready to say goodbye. i hope we all stay friends when we come back. my friends are great ive never felt so lucky. im going to have a hard time getting by with everyone so far away but i will not forget anyone. i dont want to leave anymore. i want things to stay like this forever...

i hope west virginia treats you well..and dont forget that i love you!! <3

one check, one love

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 02:20:40 GMT

hiiiiiii live is going pretty ok lately, im waiting for jenny to get here were going outt. i worked alll day today it was not fun, tomorrow will not be fun either i have worrrk for a little n then im getting my hair doneee thats kinda cute it just takes long. new hair = new attitude im not sure what it will be yet but it will be more positive then the one i have nowwwww : ) me n aim girl n anggg attempted to make jello shots last night, we succedded in the looks catagory but no one has touched one yet lol thats a bad sign. laguna was a great episode this weeeeek i love lc and stephenn!! i want to go to the beach!! of course it was a beautiful day out today. i will be hitting that beach up asap. so the sun better stay!! im gonna go hopefully to have a fun nightt byee!!

alllll aloooooooooonee...

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 04:20:14 GMT

i dont know what happened to me. this is my life ok its 12:15 and thats bad. another nite of doing nothing. im in a mood. one of my moods, it seems im always in them lately. i used to always have something to do, i mean i could have something to do i just choose not to. i need to stop being lazy. i got some advice from someone today who wishes to remain annonymous and i think i might just have to listen to them. i dont know, i just dont know anymore.

summer summer summer

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 18:27:28 GMT

i love the summer : ) i just got home from the beach with my besstest..AMY!! beach 2 days in a row thats summer to meeeeeeee i love the beach, just not when theirs weirdos and brooklyn fades all over ha. last nite was a bore. i was too tired to go party with my friends so my nite consisted of driving to lavalette (to a cute little house) chillin.. and driving home an hour later. the beach was fun yesterday too except the sand burnt my feeeet!! tomorrow is the devillllll i have work for 10 hours..waay too long. but i will have a lot of $!! i may be going to see kelly clarkson on sundayy..whooo!! thats all for now. byee!!

this is just what i needed

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 17:47:43 GMT

welllllllllll last night was funnnn me and amy had a fun little time by ourselves and it was just what i needed to get my mind off of things and to just have a real fucking good time. we are so fun im really going to miss her when i go to school : ( ..i swear ive never laughed so much about nothing lol.

aim n arbor

me n the tin..lol

katie loves me..

and we love katie!!

weirdo

SAY WHAT?!?!

i burned my nail haha

mmmm

LIFE THEM..ROCK ON BTCH!!

i love us.. bff always <3*

im feeling better about things i still dont know where im at but right now i feel good and that is ok for me.

this is what my life has come to

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 06:17:08 GMT

well finally aim...lol but this is something i just had to do. im in a really upset and pissed off mood. the same things just keep happening to me over and over again so why do i care why do i even try? i hate being alone i really do but honestly i will never stop feeling this way unless i let it go im a great girl i am i just wish i could find someone who agreed. im ready im ready to let go...again. i know i can its just a matter of my willpower and i will HAVE to be strong. you dont care about me we were never really that serious so why is this so hard..i dont know but whenever im feeling sad or weak im coming here. ive worked so hard to be this person this girl i am today and it seems that i cant find anyone to make me happy..not for long at least and so im saying this now and it better stick..i will no longer care about any boys that come into my life i refuse to let myself. i refuse to go through the same stupid things time and time again and end up the one being hurt. i know im only 18 and jeez i have the rest of my life ahead of me but i just feel like i have no one. which is completely ridiculous i have the best friends ever but something is missing. that person i want to share my best years with someone to make me happy and make me smile and none of that drama bullshitt!! im not giving up on love.. im just taking a break because right now it seems love doesnt exist at least not for me and i dont wanna think this way forever so for now love wont be a part of my life. and maybe, hopefully when i least expect it ill find something true, something that wont kill me when it ends something i dont have to worry about or be nervous about or think about cuz it will be so great and so pure that it will just be. with nothing else to it. i wont give up i wont cuz i know that i deserve someone great and i just havent found them yet, and this knew knowledge im coming to terms with is that i will not settle, i wont settle for something "for the meantime" because this is stuff ill always remember. so i dont want to be stuck with something i know is going nowhere just because it keeps my mind off things. im smart i know ill be ok im ok right now i just dont want to care anymore which is what im going to try and do..ill let you know how it works. maybe now i will be able to fall asleep just maybe but if not ill be back cuz i wont run back i wont go to anyone im just gonna do this one myself.